I WILL LET YOU WIN

I Will Let You Win

I meet you at school today,
But I feel like such a fool
For not telling you the truth.

I miss the old you- and the old me
The old us that could just sit and talk for hours
and never run out of things to say.

I miss the way you could read my mind,
Know what to say,
When words were hard to find.
I miss the way you could brighten my days,
Make me forget the mistakes,
Make the pain go away.
I miss how you made me laugh,
Hate how you made me cry,

I don't know where it starts...
I don't know why I fell that fast...
I don't know the reason behind this smile...
all I know is you...just you...no one but you..

I've been holding on to your promises...
so many nights I tried to recall...
those words that I want to hold...until now...
until now...you are still in this heart of mine...

but I need to accept the reality that you need to go...
you need to achieve your dream...and that dream is NOT ME...
you said your family needs you more than I do..

I need to stand. I need to go...but my knees are too weak...
I need to accept. I need to step...but every time I step it takes a hundred steps back to you...

days passed...I know...my heart is aching...
but I know I am very much willing...
whether it's parting or forgetting...
I will let you win..